+100 GF Points
Yesterday was just a mess. Literally in every sense. My tire is having problems and so is this guy. It’s been a bad week for the both of us (well minus me seeing my Boxmate and beaching it up). We had a conversation, well maybe a fight. I don’t even know what to call it haha. I literally had to talk him through everything about me. In the end, I came to the conclusion that he is just really insecure. I thought to myself if it’s me that is making him feel insecure?
Wake up this morning to drop off my dog at the groomers. I’m eating lunch and I have an epiphany… I literally eat everything in an instant so I can pack him some food for dinner along with the water bottle that I borrowed from him. I went to ask my dad for $30 and I bought him some orchids at this place. I totally fucked up though. My dad goes to this place often, but I just told the lady where I go to school and that it’s for my boyfriend. Fuck. I’m just going to pray to Baby Jesus that she won’t remember or my dad won’t ask if I came. I paid her $25 for the flowers and made my way to his place.
It was a gamble. I don’t have his house keys, but I do know that he never locks his freakin’ apartment. I didn’t want to ask and make it obvious so I just drove to his place. Traffic was a bitch. I wanted to kill someone. Not to mention that I had to go pick up my little sister from school later so I literally had no time to just chill around. I arrive at 1:15PM at his place. Score. He didn’t lock his door. I scramble to place things nicely and leave a really ugly note haha. Left and got back on the freeway to make it back to get my sister.
He calls me about 30 minutes later stating that his apartment was burglarized by someone. I played dumb and said, oh really? You should lock your door in the future. He literally just chuckles and tells me that “I so freakin’ love him”. I just laugh and said sure sure. I don’t know about love, but I like you. I knew he was having a bad week so I had an epiphany that I should do this to try to make his day better. I could tell from the sound of his voice that he was really happy. At first I could tell that he was in his car. I was so sad thinking that he just left work and headed straight to LAX. Thank goodness he stopped by his place to get some clothes for his trip back home. We talked about random stuff and he said that what I did is probably the sweetest thing that anyone’s ever done. I just lol’d. He went on saying how “we are destined to be together”. I swear he loves getting a reaction out of me. It’s so frustrating. I mention how I hate living in garden grove and he’s like, you should just move in with me. No. Not an option broski. He brought up how he should just propose to me then huh? I tell him flat out, that it isn’t funny. He just laughs and I’m like no, not funny at all. He loves to push my buttons. It’s so frustrating.
Anyways the 405 was backed up for an eternity. I came to pick up my sister late by like 30 minutes… my bad.
I told Samar & Connie about my mission for the day. Apparently I had missed him by like 3 minutes. Oh well. I was on a mission to get back to garden grove to get my sister! I told Connie and she said this:
Connie: I feel like in the relationship you’d be the one with the low point score lol. +100 today
Go me haha.
lonely.
I’m lonely. Kind of wish I had a boyfriend right now or something of that sort. Spent my Saturday doing really chill stuff. Thank god for bubble baths. Being single sucks sometimes.
Good god. This pain has to go away PLEASE!
fear
I fear many things such as bugs and stupid people. After having a nice relaxing night with mother nature and a really good friend, I think I came to the realization of my biggest fear, the fact that I’m going to settle down someday. I don’t know why I’m thinking so negatively, but I know I get bored fast. I’m afraid that I’m not going to find that one person that I will never be bored of. I’ve already decided that if I marry it will only be once and god forbid if I ever have a divorce it will only be once. My future with my job doesn’t worry me too much, but it’s this. I can’t see myself living like this, not yet. I wonder if I’m ever going to get married or if I’m going to lead a successful life. I know what I want out of life and what I have to do to get it, but this is a whole other field.
What if I end up marrying a black guy O.O
I’m getting bored of cardio. It’s been about 2 weeks since I started to work out. I think I want to try Insanity. Hmm… decisions, decisions. 2 months of hell… can I do it? I’m already dying when I finish Turbo Jam Cardio Party 2. I think I will try Insanity. I like a challenge and want to push myself further to get into shape. I do need more energy throughout the day to survive, especially long days like this one! I guess today is going to be my last Turbo Jam Cardio Party workout and then gonna move onto Insanity this weekend. This is going to be fun(:
wish list spring 2012
- mint colored skinny jeans
- bright colored shorts
- loose tank tops
- lace tops
- new pair of flats
- new swimsuit
fly away
I just want to fly away and be far far away from here. I need to be away from humanity and just have some time with nature.
what a ditch
I’ve never encountered a teacher that pissed me off as much as this one. I’m about to send her a long e-mail about what I think about her style of teaching and how she can improve her method of teaching… hello WWIII.
